birthday candles, baby teeth

i feel like shit.

almost five hours into my sixteenth birthday.

i wish i was somewhere else.





"Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life"
- Bertolt Brecht

touch me and i'll scream

does anyone else feel like they don't belong?

i can't help wondering what i'm doing here. am i meant for some greater purpose or am i just another person to fill the void?

i've finally gotten to that point where i don't really care what happens next. it's like i'm numb.

i couldn't care less about what i'm doing or anything that happens to or around me.

maybe it's the weather, or maybe i'm just making excuses, and i'm not sure how much longer i'm going to be able to keep up the happy faces and smiles. it feels like i'm breaking and there's nothing i can do about it.

but i won't do anything.

i never do anything.





"Eternity is a terrible thought. I mean, where’s it going to end?"
- Tom Stoppard

i cannot live, i cannot breathe

valentine's day sucks.





"When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire"
- The Stars, 'Your Ex-Lover is Dead'

the end has no end

nothing much happens.

we get up, we go to school, we eat lunch, we come home. there's no real change. every day goes the same. it's like i'm living life in a continuous loop, everything going around in a circle, day after day after day.





"Only in books has mankind known perfect truth, love and beauty."
- George Bernard Shaw