birthday candles, baby teeth

i feel like shit.

almost five hours into my sixteenth birthday.

i wish i was somewhere else.





"Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life"
- Bertolt Brecht

touch me and i'll scream

does anyone else feel like they don't belong?

i can't help wondering what i'm doing here. am i meant for some greater purpose or am i just another person to fill the void?

i've finally gotten to that point where i don't really care what happens next. it's like i'm numb.

i couldn't care less about what i'm doing or anything that happens to or around me.

maybe it's the weather, or maybe i'm just making excuses, and i'm not sure how much longer i'm going to be able to keep up the happy faces and smiles. it feels like i'm breaking and there's nothing i can do about it.

but i won't do anything.

i never do anything.





"Eternity is a terrible thought. I mean, where’s it going to end?"
- Tom Stoppard

i cannot live, i cannot breathe

valentine's day sucks.





"When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire"
- The Stars, 'Your Ex-Lover is Dead'

the end has no end

nothing much happens.

we get up, we go to school, we eat lunch, we come home. there's no real change. every day goes the same. it's like i'm living life in a continuous loop, everything going around in a circle, day after day after day.





"Only in books has mankind known perfect truth, love and beauty."
- George Bernard Shaw

hey there, this is the radio!

the heatwave sucks; no heat policy at my school, pretty much dying.

the only upside, there's just one month left of summer, and my air-conditioning has been fixed.




"Basically, I only play one character; I just play him at different volumes"
- Chris Farley

part of the script

Australia day celebrations have come and gone, and i'm due to start year 11 as of tomorrow.

i know pretty much zero people in my year, i don't know where any of my classes are, i'm not even sure how different things are than they used to be; i'm guessing a lot.




"Contrariwise, if it was so, it would be; if it were so, it might be; but as it isn’t, it ain’t. That’s logic"
- Lewis Carroll

damn global warming!

has anyone stepped outside recently, no? i'm pretty sure i know the reason:

IT'S INSANELY HOT OUT THERE!

i've basically been chilling underneath the air conditioner all day

...it's so much nicer there than anywhere else in the world.





"If you can’t explain it simply, you don’t know it well enough"
- Albert Einstein