hey there, this is the radio!

the heatwave sucks; no heat policy at my school, pretty much dying.

the only upside, there's just one month left of summer, and my air-conditioning has been fixed.




"Basically, I only play one character; I just play him at different volumes"
- Chris Farley

part of the script

Australia day celebrations have come and gone, and i'm due to start year 11 as of tomorrow.

i know pretty much zero people in my year, i don't know where any of my classes are, i'm not even sure how different things are than they used to be; i'm guessing a lot.




"Contrariwise, if it was so, it would be; if it were so, it might be; but as it isn’t, it ain’t. That’s logic"
- Lewis Carroll

damn global warming!

has anyone stepped outside recently, no? i'm pretty sure i know the reason:

IT'S INSANELY HOT OUT THERE!

i've basically been chilling underneath the air conditioner all day

...it's so much nicer there than anywhere else in the world.





"If you can’t explain it simply, you don’t know it well enough"
- Albert Einstein

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does anyone remember the ads for bananas?

i was watching old VHS tapes, and i came across that ad and all i could do was sing along; it was like a compulsion.





"Make Those Bodies Sing!"

i shut my eyes in order to see

i think too much.

i'm in and out. i'm all over the place. i can't seem to do anything right these days, and it's really taking it's toll. i feel like crap, and i can't seem to get rid of this constant feeling of inadequacy. it's like it's been imprinted into my mind. a voice always humming in the back of my head: You're not good enough. Grow up. Stop doing stupid things.

i'm trying to sift through everything i do, but it's such a difficult task. but i'll put on a happy face and smile my way through it like i do with everything else.





"I'm B-grade, underweight but excited to be here. I don't mean what I say, it's okay, please believe me. I said I'm sorry, we could shake hands on it"
- British India, 'I Said I'm Sorry'

close your eyes and make it go away

it's really embarrassing to say, but i'm scared of the dark. it's not so much the shadows and the mystery that frighten me, but the fact that anyone could be out there. i know it sounds stupid and paranoid, but it's a terrifying thought that i can never seem to shake, no matter how hard i try.

i've been told that i'm just "seeking attention" but it's more than that. i'm genuinely scared of what's out there. monsters may only be in storybooks, but it doesn't make them stop seeming real to me.

"None but a coward dares to boast that he has never known fear"
- Ferdinand Foch

increasingly sporadic

so this is the new year?

... i don't feel any different





"Time doth run with calm and silent foot."
- Christopher Marlowe