happy as can be

i've never had a panic attack before last night.

i felt like i was dying.

i couldn't breathe, and i couldn't stay still. my heart was racing and there was nothing i could do to stop it.

my hands were shaking. i thought i was having a heart attack.





"All I can do is be me, whoever that is"
- Bob Dylan

a mess of human insecurities

i'm turning into everything i said i would never be.

but i guess it's just the way everything works. i'll try to change. to be a better person. because right about now, i hate who i'm becoming.

"Where are you?/And I’m so sorry/I cannot sleep/I cannot dream tonight... I miss you"
- Blink 182, 'I Miss You'