we are nothing

and that's something we're going to have to live with, and deal with every day of our lives.





"I will always be the hopeless romantic, more often pathetic than heroic"
- Chris Lowell

the night has teeth

i know people who know people who know people.

...and that's how we get our hands on fireworks.





"In 20 years, you will be more disappointed by what you didn’t do than by what you did"
- Mark Twain

self destruction sequence initiated

i want to see you.

i know it's only been a week, but after hearing your voice on the phone...

i went three months without seeing you, talking to you, thinking about you.

you just had to come over last week, didn't you? i was doing so well, i had almost stopped thinking about you. you have someone else, why can't i just forget about you?

why can't you see the way i feel about you? why is everthing so hard when it comes to you?

please do me a favour and stay away, because i know i won't be able to control myself.





"Worry is a misuse of imagination"
- Dan Zadra

brightest day, darkest night

you give the best hugs.

too bad i never see you anymore.

and the fact that you have someone else to hug you, and talk to you, and see you more than once every three months.

i miss the way we used to talk. and i miss knowing you.





"I know I'll never really get inside of you. To make your eyes catch fire the way they should."
- The Cure, 'A Letter To Elise'

my non-existent wonderland

isn't it strange how you can talk to someone for so long and realise that you know practically nothing about them?

it's that way for me.

but then you find yourself telling them all about your life and what's going on with you, and they say they understand, but they never offer anything up for discussion.

i just wish you'd open up and let me in.

maybe i'd make a good friend.





"Any idiot can face a crisis. It is this day-to-day living that wears you out"
- Anton Chekhov