over the course of a single day so much happened and yet we all managed to survive

it's over. i'm finally finished.

i'll give up everything i've strived to achieve, everything i've been fighting for.

but when you think about it—and i mean really think about it—does any of this matter? do you remember what you did when you were 16?





"Time is an illusion. Lunchtime is doubly so"
- Douglas Adams

dismantle the moon

i'm sick of pretenses, why can't people say what they think?

i hate it when you talk down to me.

i'm scared of the future.

i stole your lucky bracelet, and then i lost it.

your smile makes me smile.

i get to school late and leave early because i hate being there.

sarcasm is the reason i don't love you.

i hate it when you tell me what i should do; i'll figure it out for myself, i may make a few mistakes along the way, but i'll know i did it on my own.

how about i lie a little less and you lie a little less.





"It's time for a mental health day. So conjugate this: I cut class. You cut class. He/she/it cuts class"
- Laurie Halse Anderson, Melinda Sordino, 'Speak'

self destruction sequence initiated

i want to see you.

i know it's only been a week, but after hearing your voice on the phone...

i went three months without seeing you, talking to you, thinking about you.

you just had to come over last week, didn't you? i was doing so well, i had almost stopped thinking about you. you have someone else, why can't i just forget about you?

why can't you see the way i feel about you? why is everthing so hard when it comes to you?

please do me a favour and stay away, because i know i won't be able to control myself.





"Worry is a misuse of imagination"
- Dan Zadra

you, me, mexico, and my guitar

i just need someone to talk to.

someone who won't make me feel like the lowliest thing on the planet.





"For the most part, fear is nothing but an illusion. When you share it with someone else, it tends to disappear"
- Marilyn C. Barrick

i don't know why he's an opera singer

i'm so overwhelmed right now.

i've been so busy lately, and right now is when i'm getting swamped with assignments.

so, not good.





"Several excuses are always less convincing than one"
- Aldous Huxley

last thing i need first thing in the morning

she keeps asking me if i've been hurting myself. last night she wanted to know whether i'd taken to my own arm with a match.

she stopped talking to me when she saw i was wearing a bandaid on my left arm over the weekend. i bet she thinks that i have nothing to live for, so i may as well end it now.

i hate it when she does that.





"Perhaps there can be no perfection. Only levels of imperfection. Only differences. Each time we move closer and closer, but never can be satisfied. A piece is never complete, only at some stage abandoned"
- Peter Goldsworthy

brightest day, darkest night

you give the best hugs.

too bad i never see you anymore.

and the fact that you have someone else to hug you, and talk to you, and see you more than once every three months.

i miss the way we used to talk. and i miss knowing you.





"I know I'll never really get inside of you. To make your eyes catch fire the way they should."
- The Cure, 'A Letter To Elise'